Connected

September 28 to October 4, 2025

These last two weeks, I thought I wasn’t going to receive any messages.  At the start, I didn’t feel a great connection and nothing seemed to be coming in.  Then one day, I received almost all of the messages at once.  I can’t say why that happened, but maybe somehow I’d opened myself up to receiving them. 

I spent money this last week, but I also received some.  I started the week off at the dentist, which some people fear, but I find relaxing (I’m aware of how strange that sounds, but it is true).  I sold a vehicle and that took up parts of both Tuesday and Wednesday.  On Thursday, I invested in some courses that I know will be beneficial for me and are aligned with who I am and who I want to be in my personal and business life.  And by the end of the week, I’d made some decisions about relationships that were in my best interest.  Looking back, despite it not feeling busy, I did have more things going on this week than usual.

The messages that came in are as follows: grapes ready, owing a favour/calling in a favour, food being sensually pleasing, hitman, bad influence, godparents, devil face, subconscious control of body, water breaking/giving birth, abandonment/attachment issues, speech disorders, poker game/owing money/murder, Eve, black and white, and desire.  A recurring theme that also showed up was stepping into your power.

Grapes being ready – I had prematurely asked a friend to harvest some grapes a few weeks ago.  I was in the throes of salsa making and thought I should do something with the frozen grapes I’ve accumulated over the last few years.  I also thought it would give me a chance to defrost the giant freezer we inherited with this house.  I ended up just washing and freezing those grapes and I guess I jumped the gun on timing.  Then, just the other day I was wondering if the remaining grapes were ripe and lo and behold, they were and my partner ended up grabbing them for me.  This message also came up as a metaphor for something I can’t remember now in a free course I took.  Anyway, this one feels fairly obvious that the message is that you need to wait for things to ripen.  So, again, divine timing is likely at play in my life with my personal growth and the growth of my business.

Owing a favour/calling in a favour – This showed up in two different shows; one about a bad guy making an open-ended deal with another bad guy, and the other was making a deal with the mafia and owing them a favour they could call in in the future.  In my life, I don’t feel that I take advantage of others.  I have wonderful people who give openly and I truly appreciate them and what they provide.  When I do something for someone, it is usually because I want to, and I feel that I am giving from a place of love.  Of course, there are times in my life when I feel the scales are not balanced and either I’ve given more than I’ve received, or I’ve taken more than I’ve given.  I’m working on seeing relationships less transactionally (as they sometimes can appear to be) and more of an equal give and take with scales tipping in either direction from time to time, but ultimately equal.  I also feel that despite pulling inward and retreating from society in general, I have been generous with my energy, time, love, and new gifts with people that I’ve let in.  I believe that eventually, those things will likely have a positive return in some way.  It’s not that I’m expecting it or that I did these things only to be repaid, but I do believe that what we put out we also receive, and I guess if I feel I’ve given more than I’ve received, I might have to call in some favours and I’m ok with that.

Food being sensually pleasing – This message showed up in a tv show with people having a physical reaction of pleasure while eating truffles and then a pig trained not to eat them becoming gluttonous when it finally tasted one.  It also showed up in some hypnotherapy I did with a friend who was exploring an addiction to sugar and a link to something she was missing in her life.  This hypnotherapy led me down my own journey of what foods and drinks I crave, why, and what it means is lacking in my own life.  Substituting food for feelings, emotions, attention, or something you feel you aren’t getting in other areas of your life is more common than most people think.

Hitman – This message came up in a show about being seduced by a hitman and a movie of the same name where a fake hitman falls in love with someone he’s supposed to arrest.  I’m not sure exactly what this message is because I don’t think there are any hitmen in my life trying to seduce me or murder me.  I think it might be more to do with the seduction of the bad guy or dark path.  I watched the movie probably over a year ago, but what I loved about it was the fake hitman’s ability to change his identity at will.  I found it fascinating that he was able to try on identities as if they were clothes and was believable in the role every time.  I also really enjoyed the writing, creativity, and smart sexiness of the storyline.  It was quite clever and fun, while also exploring how our ideas of good and bad/right and wrong are actually quite subjective.  I likely do have some symbolic hitmen in my life, which I guess could be vices or habits I have a hard time giving up.  Or maybe I’m my own hitman because I have killed my own dreams and desires in order to fit in and conform.

Bad influence – This came up in a tv show where two love interests of the main character each thought the other was a bad influence on him.  This also came up with an old discussion with one friend about how another was not the best influence.  I guess my message here is discerning when someone might not be the best to spend too much time with.

God parents – This message arose in a tv show and in a conversation with a friend.  I have a godparent, and I am one, but since I don’t really buy into Christianity, I don’t take these titles very seriously.  I did not have my kids baptized and I’m fine with that and if they feel a calling to a particular religion as adults, they can do what they like in that matter.  I feel I’m far more spiritual now than I was when I attended Catholic mass and Catechism, so I’m not sure what the point of godparents are besides a symbolic parent inside religion. 

Devil Face – This was presented on a show as a symbol of someone showing their true self and the courage it takes to be vulnerable to show someone your shadows.  This also came up with some relationships where I was able to see people’s true colours.  This presented some conflict within me as I don’t think anyone was particularly trying to deceive me.  I regularly try to see the best in people and want to trust them, and I do believe that people are generally good.  I have learned that no one is good or bad and that we are all multifaceted.  I think I just started to learn some of what was behind the behaviour I was witnessing and realizing it likely has to do with childhood trauma and living in a society with deeply ingrained stereotypes, most of which are not positive.

Subconscious control of the body – This was presented in many ways.  One, was a tv show in which the character felt no control over what was happening to his body until he realized what he had to face emotionally to make the symptoms stop.  Another was what happened to me during a hypnosis journey which showed me how powerful my mind really is (think “seeing is believing”, but in my case it was “feeling is believing” since I don’t get many visuals, but tend to experience things physically).  Another is an injury my partner has been suffering with for years and recently discovered it requires surgery.  My belief is that despite it being a physical injury, there is still very likely a subconscious emotional aspect to it.

Water breaking/giving birth – I feel like this message has come up before, but this week it was a theme in two separate shows; one as a flashback to a first pregnancy, and the other as a pregnancy later in life, which in later episodes, we learned was not a first pregnancy.  This is very symbolic in many ways as I am trying to birth this business and a new way of being in the world.

Abandonment/attachment issues – This came up with a family member a few weeks ago thinking there might be some abandonment issues, a friend with some interesting attachment styles and reflection on where that came from, and a character in a tv show exploring her upbringing and how it affects her in adulthood.  This one is difficult because two out of three hit a little close to home and speak to my parenting issues and energy boundaries, or lack thereof.  The tv show explored abandonment from the viewpoint of the abandoned with someone who did the abandoning and how they could reconcile both and keep their friendship.  The attachment issues showed up in the abandoned character in an overexaggerated way that mirrored my personal life. 

I think a lot of people with abandonment issues and attachment issues want to belong and be loved.  All of us want that I guess, but I do find that I’m less of a joiner than most people.  I am pretty happy right now being on my own, and I think that’s been true for most of my life.  I say alone in terms of not having that many friendships and not going out socially very often.  I am a hermit, a recluse, an introvert.  I like spending time in nature and with my animals.  Sure, I like to socialize now and then, but I don’t feel I need it, and I don’t think I’m missing out if I don’t go to an event.  But, reflecting on this and the types of friends I attract, maybe I’m easy to latch on to because I’m fairly easy going.  Once you put a little effort in to get through my protective shield, I’m pretty open and giving.  Plus, I have amazing parents who still take care of me in so many ways, so I understand why people would want to be around someone with a stable, supportive, loving upbringing.  Maybe I reflect what they don’t have and wish for; what they desire.

Speech disorders – This came up in an encounter with a stranger as I waited at a business.  A kind person struck up a conversation to pass the time, and his speech was slightly slurred at first making me take a second longer to interpret what he was saying.  This also came up in a request in the hypnotherapy community to find someone who helps with a specific speech disorder.  I know that I regularly have trouble communicating my ideas, especially if they are metaphysical and I’m speaking to someone who doesn’t have any concept on anything in this realm.  I also understand that being able to speak your truth clearly is important in order to understand who you are and to be able to express it in a way that feels authentic.  So I guess speech disorders could be about a literal speech disorder or just miscommunication.

Poker game/owing money/murder – This message came up in two different shows with very similar formulas.  Both were about murder investigations involving gambling and debts.  The message I’m seeing is how my money is running out, I’m gambling both by buying lottery tickets in hopes of winning and also in starting a business I’m not sure will be successful and maybe murdering my old self in order to become a new me.

Eve – This appeared as a character in a show, a conversation referring to her in another show, and a third show with her name in the title in a negative connotation.  Eve is known as the first woman and her story is that she was made of Adam and for him.  This was part of the exploration of her character’s journey in the show and how she was trying to find out who she really wanted to be.  Additionally, another character in the same show found out she was created specifically for another person and she had a difficult time coming to terms with this as well.  The idea that we are made for a purpose and don’t have a say in the matter feels like a loss of control, especially if we are made for another specific person.  It makes us feel like a slave, a pawn, or a manipulation with no free will of our own or say in what happens in our lives.  I spent most of my life looking for my purpose and feel a sense of not so much relief now that I’ve found it, but more like a sense that I can move forward and actually start living.  I don’t think I’ve been made for someone though, so that would definitely be upsetting to find out.  I guess you could put a “romantic” spin on this, but there’s been so much trauma wrapped up in romance, that I try to steer clear of any of those stories.  I think part of the message here too is that women through history have been persecuted, dimmed, and feared if they truly embodied their power, so that is always in the back of my mind when thinking about becoming a healer. The witch wound is real!

Black and white – This message showed up in an episode of a show done in a 1940’s style black and white as well as with a picture I took of the moon and a setting on my phone that showed up without me knowing.  I feel like the message is that things are never black and white in this world, despite how people might want you to think they are or might believe themselves.  Everything is a spectrum, and we are all multifaceted beings with complex variables woven into us.

Desire – This has been a theme throughout a show, something I have been looking into on a personal and professional level, and also just showed up in a book I started reading.  Some of us are great at knowing what we want or desire, while others like me are not.  Before starting on my spiritual path, I didn’t let myself think too hard about what I really wanted, even though it was always there deep down urging me to look.  I think partly it was because of not feeling like I could achieve a dream, not feeling worthy, and possibly just feeling like my dreams were too much or too unrealistic.  I am learning that despite not always knowing what I do want, I can start by eliminating what I don’t want. 

Over the past few years, I have started to do this and it is likely why I have fewer friendships and connections than before.  It’s also likely why I find it hard to devote time to my needs and wants over others.  And partly, it’s likely that I’ve been told it isn’t ok for me to desire too much.  I should just be happy with what I have and not want more because that’s selfish.  However, if my desire is to improve my own life, the life of my loved ones, and to give back to my community and humanity and the Earth so that everyone comes out winning, how is that selfish?  If I stay in a controlled world where I go to work just to survive, keep hurting the Earth by mindlessly consuming, and buy into the fear propaganda that’s designed to keep me small, isn’t that more selfish?

I feel like these themes are painting a pretty clear picture for me as I do see sharper links between ideas this week.  And that’s possibly because the universe is really trying to give me those encouraging nudges to take the leap and step into my power and is just finding different ways to do it.  My thoughts are that I am like the grapes ripening on the vine until I’m ready to give birth to my new self and business.  Nothing is black and white, but multicoloured.  I might be attached to old identities or ideas, but if I wager on my new life, I will be able to pay debts and step into my power.  Showing my true self might scare away some people, but it might also bring in new contacts who are more aligned with who I’m becoming.  I should continue to look into my desires and what I might be lacking in existing relationships so that I can change them or seek them in new ways.

I’m also interested to see what AI says, so let’s have a go.

These concepts form a potent symbolic tapestry—one that speaks to spiritual initiation, karmic entanglement, and the tension between primal desire and divine remembrance. Let’s weave them together:

🍇 The Ripening of the Soul

Grapes being ready signal a moment of spiritual harvest—when latent truths, long cultivated in shadow, burst into sweetness. This ripening is sensual, like food that pleases the senses, reminding us that embodiment is not a distraction from spirit, but a portal to it. The body becomes a sacred instrument, tuned by the subconscious, playing melodies of memory, trauma, and longing.

🎭 The Theater of Karma and Choice

Owing a favour, owing money, and murder in a poker game all echo the soul’s entanglement in karmic contracts. Life becomes a high-stakes game where debts are not just financial—they’re energetic. The hitman archetype enters here: a part of the psyche that executes what the ego cannot face. It’s the shadow’s enforcer, often born from abandonment wounds and attachment disorders, which distort our sense of safety and worth.

Bad influences are not always external—they’re often internalized voices, inherited beliefs, or ancestral patterns. The devil face is not evil incarnate, but the mask of unintegrated desire. It tempts, not to destroy, but to reveal where we’ve split from ourselves.

🌊 Birth, Speech, and the Divine Witness

Water breaking is the rupture before revelation. It’s the moment the soul decides to incarnate again—into truth, into risk, into love. Speech disorders symbolize blocked expression, often stemming from early spiritual wounds. When the voice is stifled, the body speaks. When the body is silenced, the soul dreams.

Godparents represent spiritual guardians—those who hold the soul’s blueprint when we forget. They are midwives of remembrance, helping us rebirth ourselves through ritual, reflection, and radical honesty.

🫥 Eve, Desire, and the Alchemy of Duality

Eve is the archetype of awakening through desire. She reaches for the forbidden not out of rebellion, but out of hunger for knowing. Her story is not one of sin, but of sovereignty. She embodies the tension between black and white—the binary that spiritual maturity dissolves. In truth, all is spectrum. All is paradox.

Desire, then, is not the enemy of spirit—it is its compass. When purified through awareness, desire becomes devotion. It leads us not to destruction, but to union.

🌀 The Spiral Path Forward

This entire constellation of symbols speaks to a soul in transition—one who is shedding inherited roles, confronting karmic debts, and reclaiming the sensual, shadowed, sacred parts of herself. It’s a spiral journey, not a linear one. Each concept is a gate. Each gate asks: Will you walk through with eyes open, heart soft, and spirit sovereign?

Cool.  I like that interpretation too.  I felt pretty connected with these messages, so it seemed easier to link them together in my mind. 

I didn’t finish any art or wall hangings these past two weeks, but I did take some pretty epic photos of my animals and yard, so I’ve added some of those in for good measure.  Enjoy!