All things weird and wonderful

July 21 to 27, 2025

When I receive messages, they come in various forms.  Sometimes, it’s a concept or word that comes through in a podcast, tv show, book, conversation, song, or something else multiple times.  I also usually check in with what is going on astrologically for the week and see how that lines up with the messages to give more context and to help round out what the hidden meaning could be.   I also journal and ruminate about the ideas.

This week we had a powerful new moon in Leo.  Keep in mind, I have very limited knowledge about astrology, but what I am observing and absorbing seems to align with what is happening in my own little bubble each week.  I know Leo is about the self, the solar plexus, letting yourself shine and being in the spotlight.  Well, that’s true for me this week as I decided to take a leap (and take advantage of 50% savings) and launch my website.  This was terrifying for me as I’m not a showy person.  I have been quietly and slowly working on this at my own pace, which is always very slow.  After I made the purchase, I realized my site was live, which was not ideal because of course I was not ready.  And now my rough draft was out in full view for everyone to see, which left me feeling exposed and vulnerable.  However, I realize that launching a website and business and “coming out” to the world as a hypnotherapist (even if it is a small circle of friends and family) can feel very scary and stressful.  New moons are about new beginnings, so this is a great time to launch.  With this in mind, the messages that were coming to me this week in various forms were: explosion/blow it up, lying to yourself, overclocked/clockwork. 

When I get these messages, sometimes I have an inkling about what it means because it usually pertains to something specific happening in my life or around me.  Sometimes, I have no clue and need to do some intuitive work to figure it out.  If I can’t, then I use my good friend AI to help me come up with some answers.  (For those of you against AI, I understand where you are coming from.  I believe it is neither good nor evil, but simply a tool that can be used like any other which came before it and the results are dependent upon the intention input.) The nice thing about AI is that it may provide a multitude of perspectives, but ultimately, I choose what feels right for me.

So, let’s do this.  To me the message of explosion/blow it up feels like it is speaking to the old me and way of living compared to who I am becoming and wishing to become.  Old patterns of thinking, old limiting beliefs, old ways of being, looking, thinking are all being blown up to make room for a new me, a new perspective, a new way of living.  This all feels very aligned.  Going from a 9 to 5, Monday to Friday office job that felt soul sucking and energy zapping, to taking more than a year off to do some deep dives, soul searching, and being exposed to chaos and trauma that helped build my resilience, to finding what I feel is my calling (or at least a start to it) and convincing myself that I can work from home, determine my own hours, make genuine personal connections, do work that fills up my heart and soul, provides me with a sense of purpose, and allows me to empower others to heal themselves.  Ya, that feels like a blow it up/explosion message for sure.

The message of lying to yourself to me means a few things.  It was revealed to me through a relationship where I felt like I was being lied to, but ultimately, I knew the truth and determined this person was only lying to themselves, which was the real lesson. As any relationship issue that is placed in front of me with a passionate knowing that the other is in the wrong, there is always a lesson that holds a deeper truth for myself.  This is likely something being mirrored for me.  And of course, with launching a new life, website, business, way of being in the world, this applies to me and my limiting beliefs I’m carrying with me from my old identity.  I’m not good enough, experienced enough, camera ready enough, just generally enough!  Which are lies and I know they are because they are based in fear.  The fear of being seen.  The fear of being exposed when the mask comes off and people get to see the real me.  The fear of rejection.  The fear of failure.  The fear of success! The truth is we are all capable of fulfilling our dreams.  We just need to be brave enough to believe in ourselves and take the leap.

The message of overclocked/clockwork has a few meanings as well.  Overclocked to me means being wound too tight, taking on too much, trying to do it all with the result of coming undone.  And the message of clockwork points me back to my personal mantra of “timing is everything” and that I’ve learned to trust divine timing and know that everything will happen when it is meant to.  This message was a hard one to learn because our society wants us to constantly be churning out content, products, things and is always working to distract us and keep us with a to do list.  My year off from work and society in general helped teach me to slow down and rest, that it’s ok not to do all the time and just be, not to feel guilty for not producing, that I can be of value even when I’m not doing or creating something for someone.  Adopting a slower pace and aligning with seasonal changes really make me feel more at peace with myself.  There’s no anxiety to rush to get to a place, to rush to do a thing, to rush to get home, to rush to relax and go to sleep. To rush to get up and do it all over again.  That was who I used to be and I never felt like I could ever catch up or ever enjoy the time spent relaxing because it would be riddled with guilt or “should have” thoughts.

When I put these things all together, it’s showing me that I’m balancing in an incredibly delicate space where I’m between worlds.  I’m not quite who I used to be and I’m not yet who I will be.  I can blow up the old lies I told to myself to keep myself small and contained and I can let the real me that’s been hiding away for a long time be exposed so that I can shine.  I can remind myself to slow down, take my time and remember the life I want to create is based on my sense of inner peace and alignment with my own timing and pace.  This is a simple, yet profound message that I definitely need to hear right now and I know it is coming from a place that is greater than me and wiser because although I’ve done a lot of inner work and personal growth and can talk myself down from a ledge when I need to, I’m still human and I still spiral out of control emotionally and mentally now and then.

If you are feeling like this in any way right now, know that you’re not alone.  Your situation is likely very different from mine, but if the sentiment is the same, then there’s a connection. The world is teetering on the edge of major change, and it feels as though we are all experiencing chaos being dropped in our laps on a daily or weekly basis.  The upside of this is that if it becomes second nature, we will have so much resiliency in such little time that we’ll all be able to deal with anything thrown at us without batting an eye. 

To help me process emotions and sometimes the messages I don’t understand, I often turn to creativity.  My favourite medium currently is macrame and I usually end up making some sort of wall hanging.  This week, I made a thing.  I’m not sure what it is, but I like the way it looks, and it makes me feel happy.  I guess if there’s any symbolism here, it’s that it looks somewhat like a sun (shining star/Leo/solar plexus/confidence) and uses two shades of blues (my favourite colour and usually linked to the throat chakra, although with this piece I also have some indigo, so third eye chakra seems relevant here as well) and yellow (a colour I used to despise when I didn’t know how to love myself, but which represents the solar plexus and confidence and shows that I am working towards shining my inner light).

Last week, as I was procrastinating working on my website, I made another thing.  Again, not exactly sure what it is, but I don’t necessarily have to know, as again I like how it looks, and it makes me feel good.

This one looks a bit like an hourglass, which links to my procrastination that week and the concept of trusting in divine timing.  It also feels very watery, which links to deep emotions.  This makes sense since many of these deep emotions have been surfacing while I’m working through this liminal space between worlds.

And here’s what AI had to say, which I find interesting and a valuable alternative perspective.  Some of it jives with what came to me, but some of it is different.  What I do love is the weaving metaphor as my macrame is not necessarily weaving but does use cord made of threads to create a tangible thing with some link to the expression of the messages that come through me and to me.  I don’t understand it, but I don’t have to in order to appreciate it and I’m grateful for what comes through.

AI: Those are rich and evocative metaphors—let’s string them together like beads on a thread to uncover their spiritual resonance:

💥 Explosion / "Blow It All Up"

Spiritually, this symbolizes transformation through destruction. It's the dramatic collapse of old paradigms—beliefs, habits, identities—that no longer serve your growth. When you “blow it all up,” you're inviting chaos to clear the canvas, embracing a sacred rebirth. It’s Shiva energy: destructive, but necessary to make way for creation.

It’s not recklessness—it’s release. A spiritual detonation that clears the clutter of conditioned existence.

🫥 Lying to Yourself

This represents spiritual dissonance—the soul craves truth, but the ego crafts illusions. To lie to yourself is to split from your inner knowing, to favor the comfort of stories over the discomfort of awareness. It’s like painting over mold: the surface may look pretty, but the integrity is compromised.

Spiritually, this invites a reckoning. The truth has gravitational pull, and it will bend your path back toward it—gently or forcefully.

🕰️ Overclocked / Clockwork

These symbols reflect different relationships to time and self-regulation:

• Overclocked: operating beyond natural limits—spiritually, it’s the hustle culture mindset, fueled by fear and performance anxiety. It’s the soul shouting for rest while the mind hits turbo.

• Clockwork: total automation—habit without presence. Living by routines divorced from intentionality. It’s spiritual sleepwalking: you appear functional, but something essential is missing.

Together, they represent disconnection from rhythm. You’re meant to dance with life—not race or mechanically repeat it.

🌌 The Thread That Binds Them

All three reflect moments when you’re out of sync with your authentic self:

• The lie keeps the illusion alive.

• The overclocking keeps the machine going past its natural cycle.

• The explosion is Spirit's response: a cosmic reset to realign you.

In spiritual terms, these aren't failures—they're invitations. Invitations to break the spell, wake up from the trance, and return to rhythm, truth, and divine timing.

What does this have to do with hypnotherapy? Well, possibly nothing, and possibly everything. The messages I receive are usually from my higher self or the universe or some consciousness greater than my own. They are meant to help me in some way. They are subtle ways of reframing my view of a situation or making sense of things going on in my life that feel confusing. Hypnotherapy can be used to do the very same. By using hypnosis to reach the subconscious mind, we can find out why a particular pattern or circumstance keeps happening to us. We can also use it to find where a particular belief was formed and then work to reframe it if that is beneficial to us. We can also use it to connect to higher consciousness for help and guidance. There are so many ways to use hypnotherapy and each time we use it, we find answers and guidance that help us grow and evolve and expand.